The Rhinestone cow girl (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} astroartist) wrote,@ 2008-03-28 23:58:00 |
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Crystal and the lip gloss arsenal
I can’t fight it anymore, and this is very hard for me to say and it even feels strange when I say it out loud, …. I am not a kid anymore.
To tell you the truth I am glad. I am willing to trade maturity for a few fine lines around my eyes. ( they are there believe it or not)
I make much better choices now than I did when I was 21, I know it’s only been 7 years but it seems like a life time. So much happens in such a small amount of time.
I am so glad to know what I don’t want out of life.
I interviewed for a job 3 weeks back that I really didn’t want. I tried to bomb the interview, and I thought I was successful until I found out other wise and they were checking references.
Now I have to really think about changing jobs if they offer it to me. At this time in my life, I really don’t want to change from what I am comfortable with.
But that just me, I never want to be uncomfortable.
I like my job, I don’t mind getting up every morning and going to work. I like my co-workers. Its busy, interesting stress free work. I am comfortable.
Taking this new job will take me out of my comfort zone, and toss me back into the line of work I left 2 years ago, but with much, much more money.
But not even money made this choice easy.
Everyone told me to take the job, no one understood why I didn’t want to take it. People like to think they understand that being happy is more important than money, but when put to the test I don’t think people really believe it.
So I called one of my oldest friends, the adventurous BreAna, the only friend that I knew would understand.
She made me realize that I don’t want to be safe forever. Life is all about standing on the edge of the diving board, and looking down. You either have the courage to jump or you don’t.
Although Breana would say, “fuck the pool, go swim in the ocean” getting to the ocean requires getting off the diving board.
If I don’t leave my comfortable safe job now, I am never going to leave it. If I take this job that I hate, It will force me to dive into the ocean of the life I want. Its easy to lose track of our dreams when life is comfortable.
SO here is to being an Adult, diving in the chlorine but swimming towards the ocean.
I can’t fight it anymore, and this is very hard for me to say and it even feels strange when I say it out loud, …. I am not a kid anymore.
To tell you the truth I am glad. I am willing to trade maturity for a few fine lines around my eyes. ( they are there believe it or not)
I make much better choices now than I did when I was 21, I know it’s only been 7 years but it seems like a life time. So much happens in such a small amount of time.
I am so glad to know what I don’t want out of life.
I interviewed for a job 3 weeks back that I really didn’t want. I tried to bomb the interview, and I thought I was successful until I found out other wise and they were checking references.
Now I have to really think about changing jobs if they offer it to me. At this time in my life, I really don’t want to change from what I am comfortable with.
But that just me, I never want to be uncomfortable.
I like my job, I don’t mind getting up every morning and going to work. I like my co-workers. Its busy, interesting stress free work. I am comfortable.
Taking this new job will take me out of my comfort zone, and toss me back into the line of work I left 2 years ago, but with much, much more money.
But not even money made this choice easy.
Everyone told me to take the job, no one understood why I didn’t want to take it. People like to think they understand that being happy is more important than money, but when put to the test I don’t think people really believe it.
So I called one of my oldest friends, the adventurous BreAna, the only friend that I knew would understand.
She made me realize that I don’t want to be safe forever. Life is all about standing on the edge of the diving board, and looking down. You either have the courage to jump or you don’t.
Although Breana would say, “fuck the pool, go swim in the ocean” getting to the ocean requires getting off the diving board.
If I don’t leave my comfortable safe job now, I am never going to leave it. If I take this job that I hate, It will force me to dive into the ocean of the life I want. Its easy to lose track of our dreams when life is comfortable.
SO here is to being an Adult, diving in the chlorine but swimming towards the ocean.
